Friday, December 26, 2014

In Which I Ask Mr Gloom To Get Lost

Today I am 44 years old. I never thought I would reach this age so soon. I always believed that time would be partial towards me and move at a leisurely pace in my case, but that was not to be and that is never going to be. Wasn't it only the other day when my father was 44?

Much of my time is spent pondering over 'wasn't-it-only-the-other-day' questions and wallowing in the gloom they induce. Gloom and I have become good friends of late, which is why, for the first time in many years, I did not throw a birthday party. I wanted to mark the passage of time in the company of my most loyal friends: the yellow lamp, the laptop, and the glass containing golden liquid. Gloom is there too, sitting right next to me, as I write these lines. He is, in fact, looking over my shoulder while I type.

Not too long ago, it was Shivani who sat in his place. She would bring me to Ganga Mail almost every other night, and seduce me into pouring out my mind. But she left one night, once she realised that I had become too busy for her, and Mr Gloom took her place. Mr Gloom has a thick skin: he stays put even when I am rude to him -- even when I ask him to get out of the house.

It is nice to have a drink with Mr Gloom once in a while: he keeps you in touch with reality. But I hate it when he inhibits my thoughts. Very often he tells me, "The subject you are going to write about is nice, all right, but what are you going to get out of it?" And so I drop the idea. This has been happening for a few years now, and in the process Ganga Mail has become orphaned.

I must find Shivani and bring her back. Mr Gloom, you can fuck off. Go find another friend.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Good one! Mr & Miss Glooms, yes, they do need to eff off! Find other friends. I'd like soaring thoughts and endless possibilities as friends!

Paresh Palicha said...

Gloom Gloom Gloom Baba! Somehow your post took me to this song. :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WC_1qwv7pTg

satarupa devsharma said...

sometimes gloom proves more effective than cheer.

Shreya at Jumbodium said...

Awesome post. Really if it is so look for other friends or better find out Shivani and yes bring her back to u. All the best. Keep posting with lots more.

Anonymous said...

Short. But very impacting! Yes. it's time you brought in Shivani to give you company. :)